today was my first content lesson, i taught about jehoshaphat in the southern kingdom, and man... it was weird! i've never taught a lesson more than once, so after my first period when all of my students left and a whole new set of students poured into my class it was a little surreal, setting up and starting all over again. i definitely got more comfortable as the day went on. i feel awful for my first and last periods... i feel like they both get the worst ends of the stick. the first i'm just getting into it, and by the last i'm so tired of saying the same things over and over again that i'm just fighting to get through the lesson. it's funny (and a little frustrating) how each class and their dynamic completely changes my lesson. even though i'm teaching the exact same thing, my lesson changes drastically from class to class... it's interesting. i'm really wanting to get past this awkward getting to know them stage. i want to know them well so that i can teach them well, and i wish i could just get there.
regardless, i'm loving this time, i'm loving how much i'm learning, and how much the Lord is growing me and my heart. i didn't think i would, but the Lord is good, and sovereign. he brought me here and has work to do through me... i'm more than willing to stand in front of 5 classes full of high schoolers to see what he's doing.
ps: reminding students of homework and assignments as their leaving my class is the weirdest feeling ever... it's like i'm a real life teacher...
pray: i'm struggling with lonliness right now... pray for my heart, that i would continue to seek the Lord for all comfort and satisfaction during this time. i need him, and every day i become more aware of my desperate brokenness and desire for his fulfillment.
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i am praying for you. honey you can feel alone in a room full of people, there are alot of loved ones with you in prayer and spirit
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