this is it. i've found it.

this post will be a random mod podge of the Lord's goodness to me, and student interactions...

this week, has been an incredible week for me. i feel like everything is clicking and settling, and that is an unbelievable feeling. i look back on my life, i see the hard things that the Lord has brought me through. i see the brokenness. i see the inadequacies. and I SEE PURPOSE. for the first time in my life (sincerely) i see that there is a grand purpose to it all... the Lord brought me through it, so that i can be here, where i'm at, in this moment. everything came together this week. THAT is overwhelming... in the past five years i've felt every range of emotion from aimless to worthless to inadequate to overwhelmed to brokenness... and i'm seeing how that has all brought me here. to a place that i can recognize those feelings and emotions, and understand that they do not define me. it is good to recognize them as a Christ-follower. to realize that i can not. but we as believers are not called to operate within the parameters of those emotions. we are called to operate within deliverance. we are called to operate within redemption. we are called to love and live within Christ and everything that HE IS. amen??
i am so unbelievably in love with what i am doing. i know that it is what i'm supposed to be doing for the rest of my life. and i am so overwhelmed and humbled and honored and blessed by that. i LOVE it. love.
the Lord and his sovereignty and his goodness to me makes me speechless. it brings tears to my eyes. it is incredible.

really, i could go on about this forever. so i'll stop myself here, but if you want to hear more, feel free to ask and i'll gladly vomit it all over you :)

my students are my heart. the love that i have for them is so outside of myself, i dont even know what to do with it half of the time. i miss them when i'm away from them, i think about them constantly, i LOVE them.

how do i know that they love me back?

-this week some of my lovely and adoring sophomores pranked my car. nothing says love like car paint all over your windows (ahem, kaylen, monica, lindsay, baxter... it's ON)
- getting texts and messages telling me about what's going on in their lives every day. i LOVE that. they want me to know them, they want me to be involved, and that makes me ridiculously happy.
- the list of people who have asked to be mentioned in this silly little blog is growing on the daily (autumn and terra, here you go ;)
- they pilfer my desk for food, invite themselves to a box of triscuits and devour it within a matter of minutes... again...nothing says love like inviting yourself into someone else's pantry ;)

if you can't tell... i LOVE student teaching, i LOVE my students, i LOVE my life here.
it is coming to a close far too quickly and my heart is already breaking over it...