yesterday evening my facebook status said "defeated"
i did not realize how much concern would surface because of that statement!
i am not defeated. i will never be defeated (because i'm on the side that always wins... Jesus'). but, i have defeated the divided kingdom. i have taught through hundreds of years of bible history in a matter of three weeks. AWESOME. and. now i get to talk about some prophets. and hosea. oh man, i get to talk about hosea. i have been waiting for months to talk about him. and micah? heck yea.
yesterday i took some serious steps towards working past this perfectionistic cycle i've gotten myself into. today it hurt. but i think it was necessary for me to realize that i cant always have it together, and that my lesson is not always going to be the best, and sometimes my kids are just going to stare at me like i'm an idiot... it's just going to happen that way. dr. cooper came yesterday to visit and observe... she saw a seriously flawed lesson (for real. i'm not being dramatic. it was pretty awful), and was still some how able to find positive things to say about it (what?!) that encouraged me deeply. i do not always need to focus on the failures. there are successes as well... and i'm starting to think that failure is too intense of a word... i think it should be more like "learning opportunities"...
that is all.
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